Do You Eat The Bread of Idleness

She looks well the the ways of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness. Proverbs 31:27 ESV

I have studied the Proverbs 31 woman a number of times and each time I go through a study God seems to prick my heart. This time, idleness is what he’s speaking to me. I have to admit, I think I’m idle. I think I’m just in auto-pilot now a days. It’s sad, but it’s real. It’s me right now.

So, I started to study what I feel like I’m going through. I started with the word idleness. By definition, Lacking substance, value, or basis. Am I any of those? Yep! You bet ya. I have not be intentional about anything lately. That got me thinking as well. Hmm, am I lukewarm? This thought scared me. We’ve all heard warnings about the lukewarm christian.
Revelation 3:16 ESV says

so because you are lukewarm and neither hot nor cold, I will spit you out of my mouth.

Now that’s a warning if I ever heard one. I have been to church. I have done my wifely duties. My motherly duties but I’m lacking substance or value in them. I’m just going through the motions. My spirit is dry and weary right now. I feel out of place. I feel out of fellowship. I feel out of Gods hands.

I’m searching all over for things to fill my time. To fill this longing in my heart but it continues to be empty. I have the head knowledge to know it’s a spot that will only be filled when I call on Jesus. I know that, but so many times I get in the way. I stop dying to self and start living for self. I’ve been here before. And by grace He has pulled me from the miry clay and made me new again. All I had to do was cry out to Him.
Hebrews 13:5 ESV

keep your life free from love of money and be CONTENT with what you have for HE said, ” I will never leave you nor forsake you.”

Never leave me? Never forsake me? After all these things that I unofficially say are more important than Him. After all the times I’ve hurt his heart by chasing MY desire because I thought his weren’t good enough. All this and he promises to never leave or forsake me? That is my hope that I have. That is my promise I hold on to in times like these. When I finally pull my head out of the ground I search for his promise and it’s still there. I command myself to be still and listen for his voice and time and again he speaks to me.

No matter what I do.No matter how bad I screw it up. No matter where my spirit is, I can call on the name of Jesus. I can ask him to forgive me for what I’ve said and done. I can rest easy knowing he is good, and just, and faithful to forgive me. I know someone, somewhere out there can relate. Someone needed to hear that no matter where you are in life you can cry out to Jesus and He WILLINGLY will answer your cry. He will forgive you. He will set your sins apart as far as the east is to the west. Maybe it’s just me but I need forgiveness on a daily basis. And this day is no different. May God keep you and be with you today.

Prayer: Father in heaven I come to you today to ask you to forgive me. Lord I know that I haven’t put you as number one in my life lately. I know this pains you. I ask that you give me strength to turn from my ways and follow you. I ask Lord that you would touch each and every person that reads this blog. Bless them and keep them Lord. In Jesus Name, Amen



They went to camp

The lil’ girls went to camp this week. I had this grand idea that life would just kind of stop and I would have all this time to get a TON of stuff done around the house. I did still have two kiddos at home, a husband, and the dog and fish to take care of. What was I thinking. I will say the pace was definitely different, and the house stayed a bit cleaner, but I still messed up with the laundry. I’m sure you saw that in my last post! While the girls were away I did accomplish some tasks that needed done. I switched Dexter to the school room so she would have her own room and made her room the school room. It’s kind of confusing but the last bedroom in the house has an extra room attached so the three lil’ girls share that room and Dexter had the other room. There isn’t much privacy there since you have to go through her room to get to the other room and she still had to share the closet and their dressers were in there too. She’s so happy to have her own space and we were happy to give it to her. I also got the garage cleaned out. The grocery shopping done. Babysat a friends son for the day. Took Dexter and my niece to the mall to get them a manicure. Made a trip to Lowes to pick up a gutter to make more shelves. Yes a book shelf out of gutters! It’s genius and saves a ton of space, and for $6 for a 10 ft piece It’s super inexpensive too. I manages to water the garden everyday. That’s impressive if you know me:) Cleaned out my dresser and closet, as well as Dudes’ room. Overall, I think I stayed pretty busy. Still, I didn’t get some painting done or through the lil’ girls dressers but that’s ok. If you knew what the school room and the lil’ girls room looked like, you’d know how hard I worked to get it done!

So today the girls come home. They left Sunday afternoon and by Tuesday I was ready for them. Now I know how they felt when I left for Wyoming for 5 days. It’s too quiet here without them. This is the first time they have been away for this long. Even Dexter said, ” It’s weird, I’ve been away, but they’ve never been away, and it’s just weird.” Yes it has been. I’m so ready for them to be home. I’m pretty sure I’m going to be the first there to pick them up today!

The girls before I left them at camp on Sunday. They were so excited to go!

Wild Bill after she fixed up her bed

Magic Bean on her bed

Princess with Beary ready for camp

I can’t wait to get them home and hear of all there adventures. I’m sure there’s lots of stories to tell momma!


I messed up yet again

I woke up to, “Tiff, I have no clean work clothes!” Huh? What? How can that be? There’s barely a load of clothes that need to be washed. I’ve kept up pretty well this week with laundry with the lil’ girls at camp and all. How on earth could I have missed to wash my husbands work clothes this week? I jump out of bed straight away and start looking in the closet and the dresser. NOPE! No work clothes there. I take off down the hall to the dryer, all the while hearing my dear husband rant. I open the dryer. NOPE! Not there either. I continue down the hall to the linen closet where the dirty laundry is kept. Inside is a partial basket and two pairs of work jeans caked with dirt and grease. YEP! There they sit. The only two pair of work pants he wears and a couple of shirts. How did I miss that last night? I look some more and see that there are 3 more shirts in the wash that I forgot to switch over. Oh my! I’m really slacking now. We find a pair of pants in the closet he used to wear but are missing the button and a shirt that someone has dried that looks like a tube top. He starts to stretch out the shirt while I try to attach a button I bought two weeks ago to put on them. It epically fails and in distress he throws them on with a belt and takes an extra button to try to put on them at work. I feel terrible! With 3 of the 5 children away from home, how have I missed the opportunity to get all the clothes clean?!?! Well, I am human. I’m not perfect. I’ve been switching rooms around all week. I’ve slacked. Plain and simple, I MESSED UP! Now, my poor husband had to start the day off on a rotten note. I hate that. And to top it all off I didn’t make him a lunch last night so he’s going to work knowing he’ll have to eventually make time to get something to eat. His work has been slammed the past few weeks and I’ve tried to take good care of him just to ease a little of his tiredness. But this morning, I’ve failed him. No, it’s not THAT big of a deal but it still feels sucky. I feel bad for the stress I have caused in his day. The bible says we are to care for our husbands. Meet there needs, but I didn’t do that. I can be sure this isn’t the last time I’ll screw up. I’m sure I’ll do it again but right now I just feel terrible. I know he’ll forgive me and get over it but in the mean time I’ll waller in my self pity for being a “bad” homekeeper and go get to that laundry:)


I’m just being honest

I have been getting quite a few new followers lately and I thought maybe I’d share something most of you don’t know. I don’t know anything about blogging! Yep, it’s true. I write what’s on my mind and my heart and post it here but other than that I’m clueless. I don’t know about widgets, though I’ve tried to research it. I don’t know about the sidebar, I think it’s the side of the page. I don’t know how to look at who’s following me, I do get an email that says I have a new follower. I don’t know how to make a drop down menu bar thingy. See, I really don’t know anything. God laid it on my heart to start a blog and after a few short months of research I got the nerve to do it. I blog from my IPad, seems how I break every computer my husband buys me. As a matter of fact there are 4, yes 4, other computers in the house right now and none of them work! If I collectively could build them all together then I’d have probably one that worked but I’d just break it so why bother:)
Back to being honest…….. I hope you all will excuse the grammatical errors as I failed english/ grammar in high school. Most of the time I say things that don’t make sense thinking it’s a different word, and if it wasn’t for auto correct on this here IPad, I would have God only knows how many spelling mistakes. Most of the time if I don’t know how to spell something I just type it in how it sounds and the trusty spell check gives me some options. I’m not being hard on myself just completely honest. When my family and close friends heard about my blogging adventure they couldn’t believe it because they know me. They know I’m not that great in this area and yet with each blog post they can’t believe it all comes out so well. I’m doing this for God, with His direction and leading, with His hand in mine, and for that reason, it all works out. I don’t have to know all the fancy things about a blog. I just have to write and let God take it where He wants it to go. So there you are. My honesty all laid out, and a few secrets shared. I hope you continue to follow this blog and come to feel at home as if we’re old friends. Much Love!


For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper and not fail, to give you a future and a hope. Jeremiah 29:11

What we’re up to today

This morning I hear an awful cry for momma to come to the swing in the back yard. It’s the Princess & Magic Bean along with my two nieces hovering over a a baby bird that can’t fly. Something must of broke it’s wing. Poor thing! Now, here’s the dilemma, what am I supposed to do with it? I think for a second then grab it up and find an empty box to put it in.

The girls all decide that it needs some twigs, leaves, and some bread to eat. This poor dying bird is living the high life in its final moments. I’m sure that sooner than later I will be comforting said kiddos on the loss of there now “pet” bird. It’s a good feeling though that they are being so caring. I must be doing something right for them to be so compassionate. I hope that this is the last bird incident for the summer but I’m guessing not since this is actually bird number two that’s been found hurt and not flying in the back yard!


Weekly memory verse week 8

Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise.
–Philippians 4:8, NLT

How many times a day do we fix our thoughts on such things? I’m GUILTY! I tend to have my mind lean towards thinking of things that are going wrong. Things like, the kids fighting, the schoolwork battle, the never endless to do list. When was the last time I just spent some time thinking of things that are pure, lovey, and admirable? I know with the memorization of this verse I must be intentional about such things. I know that Satan comes to steal, kill, and destroy. I know that he doesn’t want me to reflect upon Gods grace and mercy and love, but I’m going to be intentional about these things. Not only do I propose to you to memorize this verse this week, but I propose you to fix your thoughts on excellent things that are worthy of praise. I’m going to make a list to post in the kitchen about such things. Will you as well?

Leave a comment below if you’ll be joining me this week in being intentional in your thoughts.


It’s a sad, sad day

This morning marks the 4th day my kitty has been missing. She is not just missing. She is gone. I know this because in just a few weeks she would of celebrated her 20th birthday. She’s been hanging on a limb for about a year now. She has lost weight, had a hard time seeing, and can barely hear. She was last seen Sunday afternoon under the neighbors shade tree (one of her favorite places to lounge). She waited for us to get back from a weekend camping and say our goodbyes or hellos, then she went off and hasn’t been seen since. I’m sad. My heart breaks for the loss.

I picked out Winnie from a mans garage when I was 12 years old. We couldn’t take just one FREE kitten, that would’ve left the brother alone, so we took them both. Winnie and Pooh! They were so funny and barely weened at the time, so they would suck on your shirt or your neck while you were sleeping. Pooh had some kind of seizure around 3 years old and left one day and was never seen again. Winnie on the other hand has been around the whole time. She has been quite spoiled too. Always slept right at the top of my pillow, ate wet can food, drank from the running tap water. She was a good cat. She has slept with each and every one of my babies and protected them at night. I will truly miss my kitty. My kids will miss her too. They all loved Winnie. She has been a part of our family for so long it will seem weird living without her. I know she is in a better place now. She has lived a long, full life, and I’m thankful we had that time with her. Rest in peace Winnie. You will be missed!